It sounds like you’re experiencing a great amount of distress. It is important for you to remember to care for yourself despite the difficulty and challenge that you are experiencing. Self care involves physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, and relational. I am interested to know how you have been managing so far despite the circumstances. What kind of support do you have in your life right now? How have they been helpful to you? It is important for you to utilize your current resources for the issues you described. For example, with financial support, I would recommend speaking to your financial advisor at your local bank to provide advice with manage finances. Some communities provide courses or seminars for individuals who are struggling with financial difficulties. It is important to assess your marriage to determine where it’s strengths and weaknesses are. Some resources that can help you with this would be books by John Gottman (7 Habits of Happily Married Couples), or you can click on the following link to get free relationship advice via email (http://www.marriagemax.com/). You may also find it beneficial to speak with a therapist to help you manage your current stresses, develop healthy coping strategies, and determine goals for yourself and your future.