I am 26 years old and have been with my boyfriend for 6 years now and we have a 18month old little girl who means the world to both of us. I am writting to express some issues on my mind that last couple months. I love my boyfriend tons, but sometimes he does not always treat me the best, me some times calls me names when he is mad at me and i know that he does not mean it, its just how he expresses his anger. After 6 years of this it is starting to really hurt me to hear these words sometimes. I am scared that when out daughter gets older that he might talk to her like that and she does not dererve that and i dont want that for her at all. I have thought about leaving him numerous times in the last couple months and dont know what i should do?
In all relationships (abusive and non-abusive), there’s a strong attachment. it’s hard to let go of the attachment even if we know the relationship was not healthy. You may still have some processing to do to completly get over your ex husband.
In addition, you’re brain became used to the drama that went along with the abusive relationship. The uncertanty and instability can be a psychological rush. If this does not exist in your current relationship, your brain is probably missing the rush. It will take a while for it to rewire itself. Be patient and gentle on yourself. You may find it benificial to come in and speak to someone.
I’m sorry to hear about your circumstances. It is obvious you are in a difficult situation. As a mother, you have a responsibility to your child to provide a safe, secure, and healthy environment for her. Although she is only 18 months old, she is absorbing the emotional processes, including the abuse that is occurring between you and your boyfriend. I encourage you to keep your child’s best interests in mind and make a decision from that point. Perhaps you would like to seek out help through counselling first before making the choice to leave the relationship. A few important questions you should ask yourself are “What am I teaching my daughter about relationships by remaining in an abusive one?” and “If my daughter was in an abusive relationship, what would I encourage her to do?”
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All the best,