In the last two years I have gone through some major losses including losing my business, divorce, loss of house, cheating now ex-girlfriend and a close friends’ suicide. I was forced to move to my home town and now work a temp job while renting a room. I’m not really sure if I’m dealing with all of the losses alright. I am constantly anxious, depressed and am unable to concentrate at work. I am in constant fear that more tragic events will happen. Even more I expect them. I’ve lost total faith in myself and others. I even avoid friends and family as I’m ashamed of what I’ve become. It seems like every time I make positive step another “oh my God” moment happens which makes the light at the end of the tunnel seem so far away. I have also developed what I’m assuming is nervous tick when things get stressful. I would consult a doctor but am not currently covered. Any suggestions?
These are very major losses, and the fact that they all occurred close together tells me that your stress and anxiety level must be at an all-time high. Feeling anxious, depressed, and unable to concentrate are all natural reactions to your life situation. It is very normal to feel this way given what you have gone though. You have a lot of processing a head of you. I highly recommend speaking to a therapist. If you are not covered, there are a few places in Edmonton that work on a sliding fee. Insight Psychological (780461-1717), The Family Center (780-424-5580) or The Support Network (780-482-0198). You may also want to call The Distress Line (780-482-4357).
In the meantime, what small changes can you make to calm and comfort yourself? Can you take up meditation, work out at the gym, go for a walk, go fishing, or look up “mindfulness” exercises? Any small thing you can do to feel like you again will help you through this moment in your life.