It sounds as though you have experienced a fair share of hardships in your family life. To be a victim of any type of abuse and to seek help is the first step in the healing process. You did not deserve to be abused by your brothers or by anyone. You have demonstrated a degree of strength that is sometimes difficult to achieve. By stating that you do not want contact with your brothers, you have already begun enforcing boundaries. If you are willing to take the next step, I would suggest calling Insight Psychological to book an appoint with one of our therapists. A therapist will be able to help you strengthen these boundaries while accomplishing a degree of closure and continue with your healing process. With this support, you will be able to move past this and achieve that happy life that you wish for and deserve.